Getting Better... And Not So Miserable.

Being friends is fine. I'm okay with it. I'm perfectly happy with being friends til the end of school and then whenever I can see him over the summer so we can talk about maybe getting back together... Again. 'Cept if we do, then none of the getting mad and saying stuff you don't mean to say. Just, wait, and we'll talk later. Love is on fire! Burnin' heart! It was love at first sight! Love that song! ItaloBrothers Love Is On Fire. Anyways, I'll wait. 'Til summer. I don't when in the summer. But, then, in the summer, maybe you can have me.

I am Officially Single

I am single. And pretty miserable. I'm going to give Spencer back his coat tomorrow. And, the bracelet I made that says: 'his baby' for I am not now. I'm probably going to hang out with Paige more often. And Chase and Stephen and Cracoon too. I may be miserable now, but, I will heal. I hope. But, I have a family that loves me, and a little sister who is one of my best friends. I'll be okay. :)

Being Ignored Really Sucks

I really hate that in between time where you might be breaking up... And you might not. And, you're trying to talk to the person but, they won't say anything back. And you're sitting there going, oh oh oh oh oh... And they still aren't saying anything. Eben after you say hello? a million times still nothing. And your heart's pounding and you just don't know anymore. 

So Far, No one's here yet.....

Time to get serious. . . Yes, I did just say that. Uhm, I don't remember how to be serious. NOT JOKING. I honestly don't remember how to be serious. Unless, I'm about to have a seizure(did I ever mention I have epilepsy?) or about to do something illegal, I don't think I'm ever serious. OMG UNICORN!!!!!!! THERE'S UNICORN IN MY LIVING ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO! NO! DON'T EAT MY NARWHAL!!!!!! Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.... I'M BEING MAULED AHHH AHHH!!! did i fool you? hahahaha no, I'm not on acid. Sorry people. Hahahaha. I don't do drugs. Sadly. Again, I'm just shitting you. I TOLD you I can't be serious. The stupid unicorn killed my cat :,,,,,( No, it didn't. Okay, so my foot reaallly huuuurts. That's what I get for being me. And, being me includes, pissing people off, being silly, and my FOOT HAS PINS N NEEDLES!!!!

Almost Breaking My Foot

I ALMOST BROKE MY FOOT! While practicing jumpstyle! I sat down just long enough to tell Cracoon about it, then, I started again. Later, I slipped, and I was all: "OWWWW MY KNEES!" you see, I landed wrong, well, I tried to move before my left foot hit the ground properly. Oh, the joys of being fifteen! <3 We love you SpeedOfSounde!!!

Birthday Parties, Headaches, and THE STAND

There are several things wrong today. One: I have a massive headache. Two: The party in three hours and I'm in my pajamas. Three: The movie: The Stand by Stephen King gives me the creeps. And, my phone is being stupid and keeps turning off by itself. Four: There is going to be over thirty people at my house today. Most of them under twelve. Today, is looking to be a great day, that is, if Paige and I can hide out in my room. The Fith Thing Wrong: MY ROOM IS SPOTLESS. See, that NEVER EVER happens. It's spotless!!!! Normally there's clothes everywhere. And stuff everywhere. If I'm on the track to a clean room I might cry. Wish me luck!

Going And Getting People

Going and getting people is the most ANNOYING task in the world. First, you need to find where they live. Then, get directions. Then, get money to GET THERE. Right now, I don't have any of those. Well, I have partial directions. I know where  he is, well. . . Sort of. I know the state and city but, not the address. Sadly. BUT! Cracoon (my raver pal) and I are determined! We are going to send him a letter :) See, when the person you want to get, is your boyfriend's little brother, there are some advantages! Loving life soo much! We miss you SpeedOfSounde aka Cameron Bennett<3

Family. . . Birthdays. . . CAKE

I AM A FAT GIRL TRAPPED IN A SKINNY GIRL'S BODY. I mean, I eat. . . ALL THE TIME! I love food <3 Food is just. . . AMAZING!!!! It fills you up, you feel better when you feel bad, but, my favorite is...  CHEETOS!!!! The Crunchy kind. They are just. . . THE BEST!!!! Hahahaha! Onward, and. . . UPWARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAKE:  One of the most amazing things ever invented. You can steal it, eat it, make it, poop it out, etc. I TOLD YOU!!

Missing/Runaway

I don't know why, but, these words remind me of a person I know. . . Well, have heard a lot about. I specifically remember: "Dude, that was like, thirty miles." "Dude. That was thirty feet." It's amazing the random things I remember. Probably 'cuz I'm like that sometimes. HOLY SNAPPLE!  I HAVE TO GET READY FOR THE BAND CONCERT!!!! ahhhh!!!!

Health Class: Nurtition/Drugs (or are they basically the same thing?)

Dopamine. It sounds like a drug. If I remember it right, it is a drug. It has to do with pleasure, which of course, reminds me of sexual activities. Teeheehee. Trust me, the whole class was thinking about it. Lalalalalalala. I wonder what it would be like to be a line. A little curvy line. Teeheehee! Then, stand up, and be a line person! Then, go up to my math teacher and say I'm sorry but I don't have my maths homework. Why don't you have it? Because, I is a line person, and I don't have hands to write up my equations! Then, my maths teachers gets carried away and I'm all sad so I go sit on a bridge then, SOME A**HOLE PUSHES ME OFF THE BRIDGE!!!!! And, while falling I scream "F******!!! YOU!!!!!!! A**HOLE!" Then, he gets arrested for murder :) of the FIRST degree.

Why Is It That When You Throw Up, You Feel Better

It's strange. I just realized that puking is a great way to make yourself feel better when your nauseous. I MEAN LIKE WHOA. AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you threw up everytime you felt bad you'd feel better instantly. well... if your body's like mine. Which, it probably isn't. But, whatever. It would also be a GREAT DIVERSION TACTIC! If someone was beating you up you could just go "BLLLAAARRRFFFEEERRRRGGGGHHH!!!" on them, then run away. I AM A GENIUS!!! Hip hip hipsssttter! But, like. . . If your mom/stepmom ewhatever was about to smack you, you could just throw up on her, and she'd be all "MY NEW SHOES!" and you could run away. And, hide in the bathroom. 
LAWL CAT WILL EAT YOU B****!!!!!!!!

Maroon 5 Misery

 First of all, I'm rocking out to that song. And, if you haven't seen me rock out to a song before, you should have already. Second, I LOVE THIS SONG!!!! Me rockin out to a song is like. . . Me being totally loose, which is really really rare. I like. . . WHOA. Have you ever noticed how people don't really EVER like good, cool tunes these days? I mean, it's like. . . DUDE THAT'S A GREAT BAND!!!!! And, they're all: no, it's not. Then, you have to say: dude, wtf are you talking about!? And, they're all: THAT BAND!!!! And, you're all: LIAR!!!! THEY'RE amazing! Then you start fighting and you're not friends til Basshunter comes on and you're dancing with them :3 WHAT WOULD YOU SAY IF I TOLD YOU I STOLE SOMEONE AND WAS HIDING THEM IN MY CLOSET!????!?!?!?!?!?! 
    Hahahaha, that would be AWESOME! I'd go steal Cameron Bennett. Why? I dunno. . . Probably JUST to see the look on Bridget's face as I flip her off, while I'm stealing her stepson! HELLA YEAH!!! What's strange. . . Is that if I asked he would probably be all: WHEN? I WOULD LAUGH SO HARD IF SHE DIDN'T CARE. If she doesn't care I'd laugh and cry and scream all at once. Anyway, I'd also steal him to see the look on Spencer's face. I am amazing!!!! And, an airhead!!!! If you can't tell.

Colog-nay

Uhm. . . The name should say it all. What's with guys not liking their guy smell? Personally, I like guy smell more than colog-nay. I mean. . . Colog-nay is worse than perfume. That's saying something.I mean. . . Permufe can be. . . OVERWHELMING.  Never underestimate the stupidity of designers.

Hypothetical Situations

I have a habit of posing hypothetical situations. The problem is, is that sometimes, my hypothetical situations come true. However, how I'd be able to go to Texas and back with a person is beyond me. Lawl Cat pwns!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Randomly Cold!

Have you ever had one of those moments where all of a sudden you're just freezing? Even, when the heater is on? I want to live somewhere tropical, like. . . Haiti or something (wait. . . didn't Haiti have a huge earthquake tsunami thingy?) Anyways, that way I'm not sitting here, like I am now, freezing my boobs and butt off, and I'm wearing a sweatshirt too. Ugh, I hate Washington. All it ever does here is freaking RAIN. ALL THE TIME! Then, for like a week in the summer it'll actually be hot. Like, over sixty degrees. Washington sucks.

Written In The Bathroom Stall

I went to the bathroom during sixth period today, and, on the wall of the stall I was in, I noticed some one had written: You Are Sexy! And, I literally said out loud: "Thank you!" There has never been anything wrong with being polite. I never realized that some random person wanted to let every girl who used that stall feel awesome. I want to go back and write: thank you! you just made my day :3 Just to see, if the person who wrote it says anything. now, that, would be amazing!

The Wonders Of Being A Freaking Teenager

I have 18 friends online on facebook. I have nothing to do. There's school tomorrow. I am almost half-asleep and can't really spell right nao. I am in love, and get to see him tomorrow! Yay! Right now, I'm pretty content with my life<3 And his stepmom is a b****! And yes, I take my time with all the colors in this blog. And, everything red is important. Remember those things.

I Wonder How Bridges Feel About People Jumping Off Them

Have you ever wondered how a Bridge feels? I mean, people feel empty and useless and then they make a scene and jump off the Bridge. Poor poor Bridge, all it wants is to have people walk on it or drive on it, then.  Then, some sad bored, selfish person goes and jumps off the Bridge. The poor poor Bridge is upset now. Why don't people think about these things? Huh. We should think about these things more often.

Sundays Suck.

I HATE SUNDAYS.  I mean, think about it, there's nothing to do, unless you're going to go to church (which I don't) or you have to go to work, or buy groceries. Or see old Aunt Edna who keeps going on and on about prunes. It's just lame. I don't have a car, I can't go anywhere. I would rather go and yell at someone in texas (I am not naming names) than be sitting at home right now. Today is so lame, that I refuse to change out of my pajamas. I would rather face my worst fear right now, and trust me I cannot stand being on a bridge. Bridges scare the CRAP outta me. I freak out mentally. But, as always, it's sunday, and I'm sitting at home wishing I'm somewhere else.